The beginning of the last

My first post on this blog. I'm exciting for this.

So it's been two days since I've got here at the oh-so-awesome Umass Amherst. Honestly, I'm happy to be back in the pioneer valley despite it being my last semester here. So much to do before I graduate. I want to take jumping pictures in front of the schools here. Umass-Smith College-Amherst College-Mount Holyoke College-Hampshire College. Who's with me? Let's do it!

I'm re-taking a general chemistry class and I'm not looking forward to it knowing that I failed the first time. But my teacher said something very profound in class the other day and made me think about Christianity.

He asked how many baseballs would fit into our classroom (note: this is a huge auditorium that fits 300). As I was working with random people trying to come up with some concrete number, I said "man, I really hope he tells us the answer." After some time, our teacher tells us that he doesn't have an answer. Now at this point, I'm disappointed because I did all my calculations and wanted to see how close I was to the right answer. But he didn't have a freaking answer! He then told us that there are many questions without answers in science.

Then it hit me.

I have many questions that I want to ask God. I want to know all the answers to life problems and struggles. Life would be so much easier and smoother if God just gave us the answers. I want to know what my future is gonna look like. I want to know who I'm gonna marry and how many kids I will have.

But then I realized life would be dull knowing all the answers. God would play no part in my life if I knew the answers to everything. God's sovereignty would cease to exist. Knowing everything takes away the fun, adventures, risks, and most importantly, the dependency on God.